I'm so upset today. Yesterday was my cousin's 18th birthday, his friends setup a birthday for him at Pizza Hut. He's got a bunch of people celebrating his birthday last night and received so many gifts. Yes, Exactly what I saw at another party one month ago.
I was sobbing after seeing that. I always envy the people who are popular and be loved by the others, I said I didn't understand why they're so popular, people setup parties for them for any occasion. Someone I've known for months is very popular, but the cousin who grew up with me is also very popular. I have to review myself, review the way I treat people, and ask myself why I 'm so unpopular, no one likes me. Did I do something wrong that made me being unpopular?
I have been here for 10 years, no one celebrates any occasion with me, not to mention my past 10 birthdays, I celebrated all those 10 birthdays virtually by myself and didn't received a single birthday gift. 15th, 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th birthday, no one celebrated with me. What about my upcoming 25th birthday in just one and a half months? I think I'll be celebrating my birthday alone once again, no one will celebrate with me and I won't receive any birthday gift. I'm unpopular, no one likes me. I'm the person who is not being loved by others, and that is all my fault.
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